I always tend to focus on the positive side. Doesn’t matter how worse the situation is, my way to think is that there’s no way we can change what has happened and unless we try to make things better nothing’s gonna change.
My week was quite the same. I was feeling weak and disturbed for a few days because of all the school stuff and then attending classes for JEE Mains at home. I was feeling so tired and stressed I can’t even explain but it’s not like that now. Some really nice things happened and when I tried to relax and think positively about the ongoing matters, I only see the good things now.
I honestly don’t know how I am feeling so much better as just a week ago I was like nothing’s good in my life. When I posted on the blog last time, I came to know that it’s not only me who’s going through all this stress. You guys shared your thoughts with me, comforted me and that really gave me a lot of strength.
The only problem was with me is that I was looking at the negative things only. I remember how happy I was when I got the news that we can attend school now but after a week of going to school, I was like online classes were better.
Though I have left that thought now and don’t want online classes at all, I and my friends still talk about how school doesn’t feel like school anymore. I mean this pandemic has made us so clumsy; it was never hard to attend school regularly before covid but it’s not the same now.
I don’t know about other schools but in my school, each class has been divided in two batches and because we must take care of social distancing and stay safe, they are allowing only 50% of the students at one time at school for now. The students of Batch A come to school on the first three days of the week and Batch B covers the rest.
I can’t explain it better because it’s even confusing for our teachers but we must follow government rules, right? So where was I… yes, I was in Batch A first but we have only 11 Math students in 12th grade so we are now allowed to come to school every day.
I was happy with batch A because my best friend was with me but I became happier to know that now I can also meet my friends who are in batch B. And yet, it wasn’t enough to satisfy me. I didn’t like that only Math students have to attend school regularly while it’s only 3 days a week for others.
I started to feel more stressed and I was like, why do I have to do more than others? All of it also wasn’t enough- we were told that our exams are starting in two weeks. I was like ‘please, no. I’m still adjusting with my extra studies now what do you want me to do?’ It wasn’t that I was afraid of giving exams but I didn’t want anything new and offline exams… please, it’s been more than one and a half year.
Now comes the part when everything started to get better. You know changes are very important, if things ain’t going so well we start to feel anxiety and to prevent that you must do something different and try to find happiness in small things. I know that’s not something too easy to do when you’re already not feeling so great but I’m telling you, if you won’t try to get out of it… I don’t wanna say but it will get worse.
That change for me was spending a day away from school between my family, with the people I feel my best. I took complete rest for one day and it was really perfect. We had a family function and everyone was so happy, and that positive atmosphere really helped me a lot.
When everyone got to know that I’m preparing for JEE, no one forced me to study hard but encouraged and praised me. I thought about how much studying matters to me and I really do like it, then what’s the problem if I just have to study a bit more? When teacher asked me if I want to do it or not I didn’t waste a second to think and said ‘yes’ because I wanted to do it.
So that’s how I spent my week. It was something very different. I came to realize that it’s in my hands how I want to make me feel. I still have to write assignments, attend classes, even my exams will start in a week but I’m feeling just awesome.
I know we all students have to go through this heavy stress but you should just know that how much it’s important for you, you’re studying for yourself, right? So please don’t overwork yourself and keep your mind positive. Think about the good results. Take a look at your favorite people who always work hard that’s why you like them.
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I don’t know what the point of this post was but I just tried to follow Athira’s tip, she told me to write whatever I feel to release all the stress and it really worked. Thanks so much Athira and everyone who support me. It means a lot to me that you’re giving your time to read my words. Writing feels so good.
How was your week? What’s your way to deal with stress?
P.S.- I’m sorry if you find any grammatical errors, I haven’t rechecked this post yet so I don’t know haha.
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