High school graduation opens up a number of ways that all seem to shine so bright that we students can’t even clearly see where these roads will lead us.
“There are two types of people in the world – those who have it clear what are they gonna do or what they want to do, and those whose minds are blank, who literally don’t have an idea of what’s going on.”
These were my thoughts when I passed out 12th grade and of course, I belonged to that ‘lost souls’ group. That blank mind of mine felt extremely heavy as it was filled with noises and a few voices of my own with a wall trying to block them. Somehow the noises seem to be much stronger.
However, in the end, I was able to find something that suited me the best at the moment and started off my college life with new people, new experiences and lessons waiting for me.
(P.S.- I actually started writing this post a few months ago so the current situation is that I’m gonna complete my 2nd semester in a few months.)
Here’s what my first six months of college life taught me…
There will be friends
On graduating high school, this thought that I have to go my own way now was totally eating me up, especially on our last day of school. I had a fine group of friends in school and it always made me feel right at home. Even though I can’t say we were like super close because I never fully opened up to them, but itwas okay, we were friends and that’s all that mattered.
When my uni life started, I felt the way that it was not going to be easy. On my first day of college, I saw that my new classmates were already getting along very well with each other. I couldn’t. “What if they’re not interested? What if I’m just disturbing them?” These thoughts always make it hard for me to talk to someone. But in a few days, I realized that I’m not walking alone. It was a new start for all of us.
It’s crazy how a small gesture like a little smile and eye contact can make you feel at ease and comfortable. Eventually, we adjusted ourselves to the new environment and I also met the people who would make me feel right at home, just like my friends did throughout my school life.
You don’t have to hide yourself
Embrace who you are. We sometimes want to hide ourselves from the people around us because we don’t want them to judge us, we’re afraid of being left out, of being alone. I always feel that way. In school, I would hardly talk about my interests, what kind of songs I like, or about my blog. It was the main reason why my friends didn’t know me so well, I never gave them a chance to do so. Though I don’t really regret it because I did what I felt was right, what made me comfortable. I just wanted to keep my online and offline life away from each other so I kept my online profiles hidden from everyone except my family until I passed out 12th grade.
Eventually, I realized that I didn’t really have to do that. Deep inside I always wanted my friends to know me better than anyone, whenever I would post something I wanted them to see it, to read it. I realized that I will be the same girl whether I talk to the world in person or through a digital screen. My interests, what I do, what I like… these things make me who I am, so why do I have to hide myself.
Today all my friends are aware of this blog and this makes me so happy.
You’re the most important person in your life
You’re a beautiful soul for caring for others and giving importance to those around you. But never forget to take a moment and think about what makes you happy, not what others want to see in you, but what actually brings peace to your mind. For me, the answer is ‘being myself’. People will always give you advice and tell you how you should be, and truly some of that advice might be actually good for you because there are people who want only the best things to come your way. But when I think about it again, is the ‘best’ thing always the ‘right’ thing?
What’s the best song you’ve listened to this year? For you, it might be the latest release of your favorite rock band, for your friend it might be a jazz track. Now how do we decide which song is the best? It’s a very familiar situation for students when we can’t decide what to do. Each way has been titled ‘the best’ by the person who’s showing it to you but the truth is that there might be something better waiting for you than that best. And that ‘better’ is what YOU wish to do. Listen to your heart and guide your own way that leads to your dream destination.
Even if you don’t know where you want to go yet, just keep swimming and follow your heart. And remember…
…you never walk alone
So that’s all for today. I really appreciate you giving your precious time to read this post. After writing it all I feel so good. Thanks for reading!
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